As I load a bowl I contemplate the word conviction. There are two definitions for this word but as I spark this bowl only one definition truly holds the true meaning of the word. Conviction- a firmly held belief or opinion. This is probably mind blowing to most.... having conviction in what you say/speak. And it is sad, to say the least. If you have discussed/debated/argued with me I tend to come off as angry. Or I just want to be "right" at all cost. Negative. I don't mean to come off that way but hey, it is what it is. I speak with conviction, not with anger. I am and will always do as such. I find myself getting in discussions with people who lack conviction therefore they proceed to back peddle until I put them in a corner. Then I somehow become the bad guy because I questioned what they have no conviction in. LISTEN, if you don't have any conviction in what you are saying, do me a favor and don't speak. You just walked into a knife fight carrying a spoon! You will not CONVINCE me of anything without actual conviction. Simple as that. If you believe the Holocaust was a farce, or Jesus walked on water, that's fine just be prepared to back up your statements with conviction and facts. Otherwise we are both wasting our breath. I'm high. But that's neither here nor there. Pay attention. I typically get labeled as the "angry black man". You want to know why? Because I speak my mind and do so with conviction. I firmly hold a certain belief and/or opinion. I think I read that somewhere (scratching head emoji). And I stand by it. So I'm not trying to be right. I'm trying to express my conviction and find out if you have any. If you don't, inevitably your lack of conviction will look you straight in the face. At this point I'm usually cursed at, told to leave, or swung at (Never turns out well for either party. I'm in jail, you're in the hospital... yada yada). But I digress. What the fuck do I know anyway?
TBN OUT
Peaces and Creases
P.S.- There would be no revolutions without conviction.
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