There are times when waking up seems like a chore. When getting out of bed is an insurmountable challenge that takes everything out of you, but somehow you manage to do it anyway but you don’t know what for. Every day is just like the last. You go through the motions of being a human yet you know it’s just an act: Hi, good to see you again- Oh yes, I love this grocery store too- What?! So and so had another baby? You don’t say? Blah blah blah, ‘someone kill me’. What’s the point? Why go through the same shit day in and day out? And then pretend to be surprised at each new day. Life eventually loses its flavor, like when the warranty of a new vehicle runs out; it comes late and without forewarning, leaving you stuck with what you have.
What do you do at that point? You can’t trade in life for a newer model with a new
warranty. Or can you? Maybe you believed in reincarnation. You lead a good life
for as long as you could remember and then the expiration of your lifetime warranty
abruptly ran out. So what gives? Well, let me tell you.
Regardless of what you drive, the warranty will run out. You
will lose your motivation to navigate daily life amongst all of the warranty
holders. That is because your so called life’s bumper-to-bumper warranty is up.
Your capacity for empathy has been exhausted. You are done, and you have three
choices left: live life as a shell of your former self, reinvent yourself completely
severing yourself from all of your past, OR end it all.
The third option is the best and only option folks. Send the
car to the junkyard to have it compacted sown in to a Sprite can or sold for
parts: liver here, kidney here, heart there, whatever. Once the warranty runs
out there is no reason to hang on to the vehicle. You can try and sell it to
someone else but it still reeks of your hopes, dreams, and admirations which
the owner will never be able to get rid of like the stench of storing a dead
body in your trunk for months (I hit a deer KAREN!).
Disregard this stigma that taking one’s own life is wrong.
Remember this car is without a warranty so it is worth practically nothing. You
know how the saying goes, “as soon as the warranty runs out, an onslaught of
problems begin” (I don’t know if that is an actual saying but I just made it
one). So what does all this mean? Can I have all your cars without a warranty?
The reason why you don't see the light of dawn and your day is like heavy darkness is because you don't have an incentive to open your eyes. You feel alone in a crowd.
ReplyDeleteYou own your car, You're the driver,You shut down... turned the key off and threw them away. No one stole them.
There's a slight difference between a car and a human being which I have to share with you.
A car does not have a brain, mind or a conscience... Human do. I know it's profound isn't it!
Although our biological vehicle eventually breaks down, shrivels and wrinkles, we have to find a purpose to preserve the internal engines we inherit as long as we can. Some give up early and keep driving around the same block, others hit the motorway and keep driving for life. The good thing about having your hands on the wheel is.... you are in charge.
Get off the block and turn at the next intersection with no destination in mind.. just get off the block.
I was stuck on a motorway once and then thought fuck it... I'm going to walk with my thumb out... best thing I ever did. Scored a new car and drove in the opposite direction. Haven't looked back.