Ok. I'm back but not in a nice way. Real talk. Good intentions pave the way to hell. I'm done, I throw in the towel (figuratively of course). I got fast hands and sometimes I would like to display my certain set of skills on certain individuals. However, I hung my gloves up a while back and violence never got anyone anywhere. I strike with the keyboard these days.
Now that we are nice and settled in let's get started. I did the best I could. Hung around for longer than I should. Mind you, against the advice of my friends and against my better judgment. But hey that's who I am. Helping others is ingrained in my DNA. That being said, I ask my self the question, is it worth it because more often than not, helping, ultimately ends up biting me in the ass, and not in a good way. The list of people that I cut out of my life seems to be getting longer. Perhaps it's me. I often use the phrase "what's the common denominator"? As I evaluate the list of folks that keep falling by the wayside I have to ask the question: Is it me?. Am I the common denominator? It is a fair and valid question. Haha, no the fuck it isn't. I had ya'll going for a second. I know who the fuck I am and where I stand on any issue and if you ask anyone that knows me well, they will tell you the same. You are probably thinking: "What an arrogant bastard". No. I just happen to be comfortable in my own skin which is hard for most to grasp. Not my problem. Because deep down in places you don't talk about at parties, YOU WANT ME ON THAT WALL, YOU NEED ME ON THAT WALL. So while you may take my kindness for weakness, you will ultimately end up on my proverbial list. This may seem harsh, and my existence may seem grotesque and incomprehensible to you.... I simply don't give a fuck.
It is my wall and I will protect it by any means necessary. I refuse to sacrifice myself for those who cannot see the greatness in me and/or take advantage of that greatness. I'd rather you said thank you and went on your way. Either way, I don't give a damn what anyone thinks of me.
Peaces and Creases
TBN out
P.S.- I'm not really as angry as that just sounded.
