I been so self absorbed in events that it has distracted me from what is really real. Life gave me another 'fuck you'. I can dwell on it. I can get angry, which I am. I'd love to step on a throat right now and hold that person's life in my unstable hands. But I can't, I have to respond like a normal human. Problem is I'm not sure how to act like what we consider normal. I want to apply enough pressure that I feel the trachea collapse under my pressure. I want to respond to the reaction of those around me, and I want to do the same to them. If I can't be happy then why should anyone? But I digress. But in the same vein I don't digress. What have you done for the U.S. lately? I sacrificed my life, and what do I get in return...? I can't get an apartment, after the house I help build was destroyed in a freak flood, because my credit isn't exceptional. Really? Where have our values gone, if we had any to begin with?
For now I will continue to battle, but at some point my prowess will begin to decrease. The suicide rate for veterans is astounding yet we accept it like the rise and set of the sun. No one cares, if they did, this problem wouldn't be so prominent. I can't even say it's prominent, it's more of a side not. TRAGIC. Complacency rules because it keeps everyone's hands clean.
Lather, rinse, and repeat.
Pieces and Creases
