Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Chino

I've never written a person piece before, I tried once but never finished. Here I will try again and hopefully do him justice.

Once upon a time I moved to Long Beach where I took a job for a small engineering firm. I started at the bottom making $8.00 an hour. I kept my head down and did my job. After a short while I was adopted by the Taurus family of misfits, a family of degenerates if I would say so, so I fit right in. These guys had put in some time, ranging from 15 to 30 plus years. Every day after work we would go down to a local sandwich shop which sold 40 oz. MGD and shoot the shit about the job and how much it sucked that particular day. We called it the 4:30 meeting. That is where I met Chino. Chino was in his mid-40s, Native American and gay. He literally grew up with the company. As a child he played in the work yard which he would later spend his life working in. So I'm sitting at the 4:30 meeting for my first time sipping my 40 trying to look like I fit in. Chino walks in with his cross slung bag that he carried everywhere like a Sheriff carries his six shooter. He gets his 40 and takes HIS seat. He doesn't say much initially and I don't pay him much mind. About 30 minutes goes by and someone mentions his name in regards to whatever work we had done that day. Chino looks up from his phone at this poor ill-advised individual and immediately goes to work. For a solid half hour Chino clowns this fool into oblivion as we all laugh hysterically. By looking at Chino you would never suspect that he was gay, that is until he got on a roll and the flamboyance came out, but it was more his delivery and attitude than it was flamboyance. He put us in stitches constantly. You really had to watch yourself at the meeting because one wrong move you're getting shit on by Chino to everyone's entertainment.

Chino was mad generous too. At the 4:30 meeting there were what we called big ones and little one's; a big one being a 40 oz and a little one being a 24 oz. So after we finished our big one we would get a little one to follow. There were countless times that Chino would finish his big one and then stand up and say, "Who's ready for a little one"? If you raised your hand, he would go inside and come out with a beer for you, including myself even on my first time at the meeting. He might clown on you to the point you want to crawl into the sewer but it was all in good fun. If you were the one to feel his wrath you just impatiently waited for the next day where he laid into someone else and you could be a part of the laughter as opposed to the source of it. Around 6pm we would get kicked out of the sandwich shop and make our way down to the local watering hole called Fabulous West, which we referred to as the Wild Wild West. Chino loved Jager. If you were family you were sure to get a shot of Jager and share a pitcher with Mr. Chino.  He was that kind of guy. If you hit a rough spot Chino's door was always open for you to crash for as long as you needed.

Chino passed away this morning. I'm sad. Over the 3 years I worked there I got to know Chino well, from me attending a Pow Wow with him and then me forcing him to sing Jason Mraz karaoke in front of a packed bar to watching super bowls at his apartment. Chino was a force who demanded recognition and he got it in the way we all want to be recognized. He made you forget about a shitty day at work. You got to the point where you looked forward to the 4:30 meeting just to hear Chino go off on somebody. He did have his demons as we all do; I only wish I could have been there to help fend them off. Chino, you will be missed dearly and I'll see you at the 4:30 meeting in the sky. Piece Brother

Peices and Creases
TBN


Sunday, February 14, 2016

Appearances (I'm Back)

As I sit on my throne within my castle walls I begin to ponder and reflect life and the individuals I have encountered. I wouldn't say that I have met more people than the average person but I have met a few folks in my day and they all seem to fall into certain categories more or less. There are the friends you have known since grade school,  friend adjacent, associates, co-workers, those you been in the shit with, those you fucked, those you came fist to cuffs with, family, and neighbors who you would normally have nothing to do with but they live next door. Among all of these categories there is one disposition that for the life of me I can't get my tiny little brain around (now stay with me, I'm off my throne and at my desk now) which can exist in any of the categories I've just mentioned. And when that disposition rears its ugly head, and it will, they are immediately tossed into their own category, which I have deemed the Appearancers.

What is an Appearancer? An Appearancer is that person who cares more about how they appear above anything else, self pride included. It's the sort of person who will sacrifice them self for the sole purpose of providing the appearance of something they truly are not. I get it, we all do it to a certain extent. Sometimes I suck in my beer gut in an attempt to 'appear' more fit than I actually am. Not a huge deal. However, you a have little white lies; and then you have the devastating, crippling, never going to be the same I'm resigning Nixon lies. Now this lie is the lie that cloaks the Appearencer into obscurity. When I say obscurity I mean that this person has cloaked themselves so well that they have actually lost who they actually are, or who they were before they decided they needed to impress so and so, or fit in with so and so, or obtain this or that. I believe we all wear masks, but some of us wear a mask conveniently equipped with a smile, a costume, with props and a full backdrop.

I run into the Appearancers. They always come out of nowhere too, I guess that's why they're cloaked. I'm like, 'whoa where the fuck did you come from, I thought we were actual friends'? Nope, fooled again by the cloak. The beauty of this piece is that any Appearancer reading this won't actually realize that they are one. I was recently at a function where from a distance it seemed like a nice party. That was until I got a little bit closer and I realized that everyone attending was actually a surrogate fresh out of a Phillip K. Dick novel, all trying to keep up with whatever the latest 'appearance' fashion was. I made my rounds and felt completely out of place and not because I'm black, although that would have been a valid reason. The best comparison I can make to my situation was this: I unwittingly stumbled onto a Broadway stage with no rehearsed lines attempting to avoid the spotlight like a prisoner attempting to escape maximum security prison. I did however, wear the proper costume which calmed my good friend anxiety. I don't do appearance, what you see is what you get, what I say is what you hear. If it's not to your liking you can kick rocks right out that proverbial door. I've seen and done enough so that I don't have to 'appear'.

I've taken enough of your time with my nonsense. And if you have read this far I commend you. Maybe we can appear in front of one another someday. Wink face emoticon. Oh and I am copyrighting the term Appearancer assholes

Peices and Creases
TBN

It is What it Is

You wake up, look at the clock and realize you have to be at work in 2 hours. As you rub your eyes and attempt to shake off the fog from the...